the wife of noble character

what are you going to major in? i don't know. there are so many things out there! i don't even know what i like!

what are you going to do with your life? i don't know. shouldn't i choose a major first? or shouldn't i know what i want to do before i choose a major? or shouldn't i be at the place in my life now where i have at least a vague idea of where i'm going.

what are you going to wear tomorrow? i don't know. i did laundry last night, so my options are many.

what are you going to say to people when they ask you about yourself? i don't know. that their guess is as good as mine?

i don't think many people can relate to this right now. i've been thinking a lot about... you know... God. and about identity. namely identity in god. i feel like i'm at the part right now where i've acknowledged that i need to give god myself... and haven't i? but he hasn't given me anything back. he hasn't said, "here let me give you the self i intended for you, the self that will make you happiest. i've mended the dirty shabby old self you gave me, now i have back for you a new clean shiny self. try it on, i know it fits." no. right now i'm left pretty much naked out here, wondering what to do with my life. because i don't want to take it back from god- but shouldn't be be returning it soon? some dry cleaners have 3 hour service.


[The wife of noble character] is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.

[Proverb 31: 25]