security envelopes

true story: i joined a sorority, Alpha Delta Chi. I got cute outfits (well, 2 of them. that still counts as plural) for monday night dinners. and I did deliveries (you can sent stuff to people in other frats/sororities) since I'm a pledge, and wore this totally hot dress and no one complimented me on it. wtf.

sorry. i don't mean to be materialistic or something... but I was thinking I looked like a million bucks and no one else mentioned it. *le self-centered pout*

"Casimir Pulaski Day" (Sufjan Stevens)

Golden rod and the 4-H stone
The things I brought you
When I found out you had cancer of the bone

Your father cried on the telephone
And he drove his car to the Navy yard
Just to prove that he was sorry

In the morning through the window shade
Whene the light pressed up against your shoulder blade
I could see what you were reading

Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications you could do without
When I kissed you on the mouth

Tuesday night at the bible study
We lift our hands and pray over your body
But nothing ever happens

I remember at Michael's house
In the living room when you kissed my neck
And I almost touched your blouse

In the morning at the top of the stairs
When your father found out what we did that night
And you told me you were scared

Oh the glory when you ran outside
With your shirt tucked in and your shoes untied
And you told me not to follow you

Sunday night when I cleaned the house
I find the card where you wrote it out
With the pictures of your mother

On the floor at the great divide
With my shirt tucked in and my shoes untied
I am crying in the bathroom

In the morning when you finally go
And the nurse runs in with her head hung low
And the cardinal hits the window

In the morning in the winter shade
On the first of March on the holiday
I thought I saw you breathing

Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications when I see his face
In the morning in the window

Oh the glory when he took our place
But he took my shoulders and he shook my face
And he takes and he takes and he takes

fully constrained

i am p.m.s.ing so bad right now you guys it's IN-FECKING-SANE. i almost burst out in tears in my wednesday computer lab when my model/sketch wasn't fully constrained (which i don't fully understand... this may be part of the problem) and i was like, "wait it isn't due for at least 48 hours... what is this" and when i went to the bathroom to get my sad tears out they wouldn't come. see- even my p.m.s. is moody. that's jacked up.

i want to cry like all the time. or punch something/one. or like, all of the above. i can catch it early but it doesn't help. it doesn't soften the blow of 'seeing a new pimple in the mirror when you wake up', or make my 'nothing i wear today looks good because i turned into a whale overnight' any easier. ARRGHGHGHGEHRHDKDFRHWEOG!!! is how i feel.

i went to the wrong computer lab in the library that doesn't have the software i need. which i why i'm on blogger now. i would cry about it, but i can't decide whether i'm just too mad at myself/the i.t. department to do that. who cares. i say- damn the estrogen, full speed ahead.

paloma street

long weekend!!! woot!!!

mine started on friday since i have no classes. i went to breakfast with brooke, took john some lunch (chili b/c it has been super cold. like 50 you guys, seriously what's going on), went to coffee with meredith, then to an optional lab (which didn't happen b/c i can't read class schedules) because i don't understand computers. more specifically, how to use them. this is for the class the professor said would be the easiest (computer-aided analyses) but I'm not used to design interfaces- I don't even use photoshop- so I'm pretty slow right now. then i went to bed at like 8. sweet.


saturday!! we went to the farmer's market in victory park in pasadena. we = me, brooke, kristin, allie. we bought pumpkin bread and olive oil and hummus w/ pita!! and we tried LOTS of free samples. mmm asian pear... then we had a picnic in the grassy median of sierra madres boulevard and ate our pita with hummus and some pumpkin bread. we went to the gamble house (where john lives), ate the rest of our pumpkin bread with him, and he got us on a tour with a tourguide who, i am convinced, is physically in love with the house. "oh and my favorite part of this room is, as you can see, this beam flows down with the straight-curve-straight pattern of the house to the supporting beams, out to the windows..." I can't really emulate her in type, but she was scary. scary well-informed!! she knew a lot.

then we went to old town pasadena and hung out and went to 21 choices (best fro yo ever) and I got a tea infuser and a spoon rest (a valentines one!!). Oh yes, valentines stuff is out. at starbucks, in old town, especially in my HEART. my fave holiday you guys. i'm very psyched. then we came home and i went to the hardware store!!! oooh fun!! i got weather stripping tape (which i have yet to put up), a space heater (which is my new best friend), and I tried to get some polyurethane. We need it to seal one of kristin's art projects which is a metal towel rack. and after a long discussion with hardware store man, we decided that a polyurethane designed for wood, though it wouldn't harm a metal, was designed for a porous material and therefore wouldn't work very well (or, at all) on a metal. i see a home depot in my future. I came home, plugged in the space heater... and i went to bed at like 9.


sunday! woke up, went to shoreline church in west los angeles. fabulous. i will probably be going back. kristin and i saw some friends there, so we went out to lunch at beverly center (c.p.k., not mall food, don't worry) with the express purpose of going to h&m afterwards. no we're not shallow. but we're not eurotrash either. came home, hung out for a while, watched e! news weekend (golden globes today!), then went out with brice and some friends to bel air pres. john came (!!!!) and we went to diddy reise afterwards which, even though it was cold, was amazing. 2 cookies + 1 ice cream in the middle + carton of milk = $1.60

came home. went to bed. now it's monday- yay m.l.k.!! we're doing laundry, and HOMEWORK (the caps are just for me to remind myself that i actually have to do it). and rush. i'll write about that later this post is long. and since it starts today i have nothing to write anyhow. sort of. whatever i'll post later. but here's some pics since all the cool blogs have them.

... ok well blogger says i can't. i'm sorry. later guys.

times like these

p.s. i love my guitar teacher. it's going to be the best class ever. it doesn't outweigh the other classes which are disappointing across the board. but still. guitar yay!

this is the best part of the royal tenenbaums

it's like a three way tie actually

royal: let's shag ass

or

eli: I wish you'd've done this for me when I was a kid
richie: but you didn't have a drug problem then
eli: yeah, but it still would've meant a lot to me

or

royal: anyone interested in grabbin' a couple of burgers and hittin' the cemetary?

loves me like a rock

yo. so. the strength of materials class- still the same engineering boys, but this time the TA had powerpoint slides. however, some students countered with a little petition to have an actual professor fill in since ours is m.i.a. I didn't sign, mostly because it's all intro stuff which we can teach ourselves, it seems a little selfish to demand a prof for two classes. well anyhow, the class is unbelievably boring and the lights are low so most people feel asleep or were about half way there (points to self) but (divine intervention) the projector turned off and no one knew how (wanted to) turn it back on. we left with about 20 minutes in class left. joyous.

tonight- SHARKS GAME!!! again, we made t-shirts. mine says, "we will we will CHOMP YOU" brooke's says "puck yeah" and has this awesome picture of a shark. kristin's says, "we're so good it's SHARKing" yes, i thought of those, i am amazing (last year was: "the sharks are JAWSOME" and "I cheechoo choose you" which is funny if you #1: watch the simpsons, #2: know that our fave player is jonathan cheechoo). I'll post some sweet pictures later (when I've taken them). rarrrrrrrr.

sassafrass

i just got dumped. for the first time. it hurts. i logged on to facebook and it told me that greg liggett went from "single" to "in a relationship" at which time i was like, "huh that's funny we're married"

nope. now he's "in a relationship" with this girl from sacred heart. I CAN'T COMPETE WITH THAT!!! but she friended me before i could friend her, so i like her already. there's this option where you can say how you know this person and i usually fill it with lies (ex: brooke and i hooked up in 1974, and lived together in antarctica, that sort of thing) but then (PROGRESS!!) i was like, "wait. wait wait. maybe i don't want to scare her off?"

but it still hurts inside. he didn't even let me know, i found out for myself. it burns. i'd eat ice cream if i had any/if i were actually hungry. le sigh.

intermediate public economics

so. classes.

my first was Fluid Dynamics. the teacher started off with "the worst thing about learning is grading so I'd like to get that out of the way" and we voted on the number of tests, weekly quizzes, and graded/non-graded homework. then, when the democracy was over, he said "i'd like to start off with a little math quiz to see where everyone is. it's a short quiz on vector calculus" i liked it at first, now i'm afraid to go back.


today I went to my Computer-Aided Analyses class, it's an 8 a.m. the professor told us this would be the last lecture. it's because it's all computer work and he can't teach us without our having computers. i love him.


then, Dynamics. the Computer-Aided Analyses teacher said this would be the hardest engineering course that we would take (and that his would be the easiest). we'll see.


Thermodynamics next- the professor wasn't there so his TA handed out the syllabus and let us go.


Last, Strength of Materials. Our professor is in China or something and she won't be back for another 2 weeks. so... our incompetent TA tried to lecture while stuck-up jerk engineering boys were difficult. I mean those that answer questions lengthily and then end it with "but this is the analysis for non-deformable bodies, of course, not taking those factors into account"- which begs the question, do you just like the sound of your voice, or did you want to show off that you weren't listening like 5 minutes ago when he said this was analysis of rigid bodies? finally, when this one guy was like, "well did you want the reactions on the beams or the reactions on the pins" (which are equal and opposite so it's not like the problem-solving is any different) i finally told the guy at the board to just decide for himself and do the problem. i felt like a mom on a road trip, "if you don't stop being a douchebag i will pull this car over and solve the problem myself! i'll do it, i swear!"


overall: thumbs down. but hey, maybe when the professors actually get here it'll be fun good times. and i still have to go to my guitar class on thursday. should be the best i think.

bambandit

did you know that pandas are not bears? they're actually related to racoons!!

i'm back in california. i could name most of the rivers and towns we flew over once we got into california, we had to circle a bit around the peninsula before landing and i could name individual streets. it feels good to be home, I got to see some friends. Now I have to pack everything. fabulous... luckily, i don't feel jet-lagged. or at least, not yet. we'll see what happens.