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today i had a great idea. or at least, i think it was great. a lot of my work is doing tasks in the same room (unloading boxes, sorting the contents of those boxes, reloading those boxes, doing it all again next week). And next to that room is the children's library. what is one of the sections in the library, you ask... CD'S! so i decided this summer we (meaning myself and those lucky interns with me) will listen to all those cd's. we started with A... audio adrenaline.

and now i understand why christian music has the stigma that it does.

not even kidding: "too cool for sunday school", "i ain't clowning around (no more with god)", "jesus and the california kid"

ode to livejournal

oh livejournal... YOU SUCK. you didn't show any of my friend's posts until i finally went to my "friends" page and saw everything i had been missing. and yes, i did miss a lot.

and also realized that i have a little life that i lead. i get up at 7 and am at work by 8. i normally eat lunch around 12:30. sometimes brooke and i throw (a frisbee) at the park. i staple and count and copy and sort and get ready for the weekend in children's ministry. i leave work at 5 and am home by 7 after i go to the gym. i shower (sometimes...), eat dinner, read for a while, and go to bed. hopefully by 11.

no stanford parties. no ANY parties. today, my biggest adventure was getting maps from aaa.

but hey- this weekend i'm going to oregon for college nationals!! hooray!! yeah, this blog is pretty boring.

sorry

sorry about that last post. i was angry and prone to swearing. and i wore pants today.

i also ate chocolate all day today. no, seriously. in many different forms, of course, but chocolate nonetheless. but it was fitting for a start-of-period day. ugh i hate menstruation.

this blog is now so pg-13 (although i think if you use the f-word twice, it merits an r rating. pg... 15?)

warning: rant ahead

ok so my mom's like, "you shouldn't look casual at work"

HELLO I AM WORKING AT A CHURCH. AS A SUMMER AND COLLEGE INTERN. OF COURSE I SHOULD LOOK CASUAL!

"i don't think you should wear shorts"

FUCK YOU. YOU KNOW IF I WERE SKINNIER SHE WOULDN'T SAY THAT.

I'M NOT GOING TO WEAR SKIRTS AND SLACKS WHILE IT'S SO HOT AND I'M WORKING ALL DAY.

what am i supposed to do? ask one of the full-time staffers? they know i don't dress like a slut, and they know that i do dress for weekends accordingly. so i should just stay on the safe side and burn up all day? NO.

one solution: mom takes me shopping and she buys my "acceptable" clothes.


FUCK THAT.






i think that's the first time i've sworn on this blog. hm.

piece de resistance

I had to be at church at 7:30 to work, got off around 1, then had a party at my house for new neighbors and had to host, etc. etc. exhausted, i took a short nap before waking up at 6:30 to go to sanctuary.

so i woke up and got some sweats from the floor... and my socks and shoes i'd been wearing earlier... and a random teeshirt and long-sleeved shirt, also from the floor. i'm sure they've been washed sometime in the last two weeks, but just in case, i got my febreze out from my closet.

WHO FEBREZES THEMSELF? HONESTLY!

lindy does...

mr. puckers has the flu

i spent the better part of today trying to fix my speakers. now i realize i need to get rid of all the spyware and crap on it.

so i thought: wouldn't it be great if there were a day spa/computer spa? seriously. you flush out all YOUR toxins and stuff while smart people get rid of all the crap in the computer. i'm serious here! you're like, "i'm getting a massage... and my computer will stop making wierd sounds while i'm not even using it... ahh bliss."

i think that would be great. but now i have to fold clothes. i start work tomorrow! yay!

"I Am a Rock" (Simon and Garfunkel)

A winter’s day
In a deep and dark december;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I’ve built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It’s laughter and it’s loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don’t talk of love,
But I’ve heard the word before;
It’s sleeping in my memory.
I won’t disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

the straight and narrow

i ate a fortune cookie today, the fortune was "God will give you everything you want."


that is one sacreligious fortune cookie! it's going straight to hell...

wally

today i was spelling something out over the phone and i said, "C, as in catharsis"

oh, vestiges of a former religion major...

throne

i was shopping today and heard someone say, "yeah, well i may be counting my chickens before they hatch."


I am smarter than some people with whom i come into contact. chickens do not hatch! eggs do!

i could fold clothes all day

have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you there's no one else above you
fill my heart with gladness
take away all my sadness
ease my troubles that's what you do


oh 5 cd ultimate love songs collection from timelife, you FOX!


that's why, darling, it's incredible
that someone so unforgettable
thinks that i am unforgettable too


take john and dad to the airport, lindy? fold clothes and clean the kitchen all day, lindy? take little brothers to tennis and other activities, lindy? make dinner, lindy? WHY SURELY! as long as i have a cd player nearby...


you light up my life
you give me hope
to carry on
you light up my days
and fill my nights with song


expect the "i want a boyfriend" funk to kick in sometime within the next 48 hours.

total eclipse of the heart

since i've been gone:

dad had the driveway repaved
greg got taller (i know, I KNOW!)
thomas got baseball trading cards- of himself!!
my mom got a 5-cd collection, "Ultimate Love Songs"


HOLY. CRAP. YES.


i got my hair "fixed" today. i don't think it looks better, the front is still all bleachy. dying parts of it pink was the worst decision i've made in a long time, probably because of the longevity of the consequences.

I mean, it's hard to go to a hairdresser and be like, "i'm paying you $110 to fix it so i can put my hair in a ponytail everyday. you work hard and make it look gorgeous so i can ignore my hair. perrrrfect." and, of course, he's like, "so, where do you part your hair?"... and i can never be honest with my hairdresser! i feel bad knowing he's doing all this work so i can have a ponytail i don't worry about every day.

all i want is for my hair to go back to normal... but it's still bleached in unfortunate areas... AHHH!!! gosh darn you venus for bleaching my hair before pinking it! gosh darn you lindy for thinking you could handle these decisions on your own!

punny

i'm dorsal.

(get it? get it? i'm BACK. oh hahaha)


and now i have to unpack.

stonehead

yeah, so apparently i don't have any emotions or really any soul to speak of.

i guess i'll miss all you guys this summer... and i just don't know it yet... an "i told you so" will definitely be in order. but for now i'll pack and sing along to my music and remind myself that i'll see you all next fall.

horrible speller though he is,

i love joe. and he knows just what to say without my saying anything, or even talking to him at all in a week. I LOVE JOE I LOVE JOE I LOVE JOE I LOVE JOE. and now the whole world (read: blog) knows it.



i finally asked my dad today why i don't have a godmother, or any godparent actually. as suspected, he has no good reason. i simply reminded him that my birthday's coming up in july, which i believe gives him ample time to oragnize a godparent of some sort for me. I don't even know what exactly a godparent is- but i really really want one!!!

I remind myself of Lady Bracknell when she tells jack to find himself a parent of some kind because her daughter will not form an alliance with a handbag, marry into a cloakroom!! (or something like that, oh oscar wilde you fox).

Maybe I should put an ad in the paper, some sort of classified.

Female, 18 (almost 19!) years of age seeks responsible, preferably affluent godparent. Godmother preferred, but not necessary. Skills: buy me presents, be cool like that, procure some definition of a godparent and fulfill that role. Send in resume with picture and sample present for me. Dirty old men need not apply.

fitch bactor

i studied for macro this morning with a guy in the class who used to be on the ultimate team. and i'm sure he's nice and everything... but he could not possibly be more inept!!! i was so frustrated!! it took so much time for every little thing that i really didn't think we'd get around to going over everything we planned to.

and i was being a total bitch. honestly. i felt bad about it-- then i remembered i'm right on the verge of an A-, so i really need to do well on this final!! but then, it was apparent that we both knew i was being a bitch, so i tried to lighten it up some. but it was still like, "sorry, you're dumb and i'm being a bitch"- AWKWARD.

one time i was like, "ok you take this question" (i actually did that several times, i'm just giving context!), he took SOOOO long and halfway during his explanation, completely serious, i just stared at him and i was like, "That is circular reasoning." and said nothing more. aww man i'm such a bitch, if that comes back as karma on this final... I'LL BE LIKE DAN ON ONE TREE HILL (new addiction- thanks, maddy...).

just had to let you all know. i'm a bitch. but you're the poor suckers reading my blog.

mindless during-finals post

yeah some of the numbers are off, i got this from kim's blog. pro-cra-sti-na-tion.

bold the ones you did as a child...

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!"
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air." (In west Philadelphia born and raised..)
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WHOA" comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer ...
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales"
12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons....
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
16. You played the game "MASH" (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter Shack, House).
17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it.
18. L.A. Gear
19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten. ...
20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
21. you know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF"
22. You wanted to be a Goonie!
23. You ever wore flourescent clothing. and tie dye too!
24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf....
26. You took lunch pails to school
27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence.
29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts.
30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band
31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals
34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
40. You've gone through this list occasionally saying "totally awesome."
41. You remember Popples.
42. "Don't worry, be happy."
43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights.
44. You wore socks scrunched down..
45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"
46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
48. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies
50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class.
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME

condensation

i didn't want to write a paper today, so i began cleaning out my desk. in anticipation of cleaning out my room, and moving out in 9 days. i came across my greek flash cards. and in front of me i now have a stack 5" x 3" x 3 3/4" of flash cards of every different color and content. nouns, adjectives, declensions, verbs, conjugations.

did you know at one time i wanted to be a preacher? well. i guess i was called to be a preacher. so i decided to study greek. i didn't know you could lose a calling. but you can lose sight of it i guess, or discard it. and now i want to be the chairwoman of the federal reserve...? what happens to all my flash cards and outlines of econ when i change my mind? I have two thoughts going through my head now.


I poured my heart out
it evaporated, see?
-Ben Folds Five


...because she who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That woman should not think she will receive anything from the Lord; she is a double-minded woman, unstable in all she does.
-James 1:6-8